"Nevertheless, I Went Forth"
What to do when what you're doing is not doing what you want it to do and you just want to cry a little and give up
Hello boss babes and besties!
I just realized that I didn’t post anything yesterday and I’m bored in my computer science class so what better to do than post a sweet lil poem to start off your week!!
It’s midterm season here at BYU, and I am grateful that my schedule is packed, allowing no time for existential crises because if I had more than 30 minutes free in one day I would probably drop out of college due to the stress.
Needless to say, this semester I’ve had plenty of opportunities to fail which have been taken and utilized gloriously.
By me.
It is I, Angela the walking mess.
BUT something cool the Lord has taught me this semester is that FAILURE IS GOOD!!! FAILURE IS HEALTHY!!! And that reminded me of a lil poem I wrote towards the beginning of my mission in Ecuador. Here it is, enjoy, and remember to give yourself grace today. You’re learning, and the Lord is SO proud of you. As am I. :)
We all know the classic 1 Nephi 4:6 - Nephi was “guided by the spirit, not knowing beforehand the things that [He] should do.” But today, I was impressed by the first line in the verse following:
“Nevertheless I went forth”
Nephi had no clue what He was going to do.
He had tried two times before to fulfill his father’s wish- had acted in faith - and in both instances was gloriously unsuccessful.
He was probably tired. He was probably scared. His brothers -older brothers- were critical and wanting to go home.
He had absolutely no clue what he was going to do - one final, desperate attempt to go and do what the Lord had commanded.
So, he trusted the Spirit to be his guide, and went forth.I can relate to Nephi right now.
Tired and scared, with several glorious failures under my belt.Am I willing to go forth?
Am I willing to keep walking, keep trying, keep failing?The solution Nephi received was anything but typical.
But, true to his character, Nephi obeyed.And because of his diligence, because of his patience, because of his faith,
An entire nation was blessed.
For generations.If Nephi had not “gone forth”, it’s very likely that most everything in the Book of Mormon would not have happened.
So I, too, will go forth.
In the face of failure, in the face of uncertainty, in the face of affliction,
I will press forward.And I know, I know,
That I will be blessed, for I know in whom I have trustedMy God is a God of miracles.
And He’ll provide a way.
Love you all my dears. Go out and slay this week.
Live laugh love.
Anj